I'm not going to bother with a cut, just read.
I was planning to make a picture that was more appropriate for but, a nice little hugging picture of Bart and Thad but, I apparently can’t draw that without making them look like they are necking or just awkward, and I really want to get this out. Plus, at the moment this one really encapsulates my feelings at DC, so I’m using it even though it’s not finished and was not meant for this.
I’m sorry I keep doing this, and I’ll try to make this my last bitch fit over this.
I know I’m going in circles with it and probably already said most of this, but I’m trying to be a bit calmer here. Trying being the key word.
I keep hearing people saying that the people who are angry at this are just mad because we can’t handle change. But that’s not the issue here. It’s not that Dc is just changing things. They are erasing things that are important to people, from Barbra’s time as Oracle, to Young Justice, and Dick and Damian’s time together. They are even erasing entire characters. People like Secret, Slobo, Anita, possibly Cassandra Cain, Colin Wilkes and Stephanie Brown. Maybe they don’t mean anything to DC or, the people who say we are just being complaining nerds, but obviously they meant something to us or else we would have never invested in them in the first place. By that I don’t mean simply monetary investment. We stuck with these characters, grew with these character, we were inspired by these characters. They will always be with us even when continuity erases them from DC history, even when they refuse to acknowledge that these people and the things they did ever existed. But that’s where the problem lies. While we’ll forever get to hear reimagining’s of the Teen Titans meeting up, and the many different versions of Bruce becoming Batman and teaming up with Dick and Barbra Gordon, we will probably never get that retelling of how Young Justice met up, or get to see Dick and Damien start out as Batman and Robin. We will probably never get to see a cartoon or new comic where Damien hangs out with Collin, or that has Cass or Steph as Batgirl, or Barbra as Oracle. These things might just get lost to time, to only be found by the more curious of new comers, and the people who fell in love with them in the first place. They are catering to a new audience who may not care to come in just because you revamped the characters. All the while, alienating and punishing the people who have stayed with them (or at least that’s what it feeling like, even if it isn’t the intent). For many of us these comics are our only source of seeing our favorite characters, or our favorite renditions of them. I’m sorry if that comes off as selfish, but what was the point of these comics and characters if we weren’t meant to feel anything for them?
For me in particular, this means losing my favorite character to the re-boot. I know I’ve said over and over that I like the characters Bart and Thad equally, but when it comes right down to it, Bart isn’t the one I constantly use as an avatar. And as I’m going through my little grief tantrum Thad’s the one I keep accidently referring to as my favorite. So this is me finally admitting to it. There was a time when Bart was the one I related to more, but over the years I’ve come to realize I have a lot more in common with Thad. Because of certain aspects of my childhood, this character hit’s home with me in a deep, and sometimes painful way. I know the version of him I liked and related to died with the Impulse comics, and I hated seeing what happened with him, and it hurt when he died. But at the time, I had some hope, that maybe one day someone who did know him and cared about him, would pick up those shards of what was left after he died, and find a way to fix him. That maybe one day he would get to be a part of the family he wanted so bad, the same way I was eventually rescued by my own. I knew the chance of that was slim to none, but at least I had that one good story to look back on.
When I heard that there was going to be a re-boot and that some of the characters weren’t going to make it, I knew he would be one of them. He’s too small and insignificant in the long run to be remembered in this. If he does show up it will probably be as that god awful Kid Zoom persona, and the one good time I hold on to so tightly will have never happened.
His and Bart’s first little story is one I know for a fact will never be mentioned or retold. It’s so miniscule compared to everything else. To Dc it doesn’t matter, or mean anything. But it will always mean something to me, and the fact that it’s going to be erased from the DC’s history all together, from Bart and Max’s history (if they even have history), hurts me more than his death or insanity ever did. Logic tells me it shouldn’t. There are so many worse things happening in the world to be upset over. In the end these people are only made up characters, created as a product to be sold to us. They are subject to change and deletion at the whim of their creators. They are not even really characters, but a brand. This re-boot is the perfect proof of that. I feel incredibly foolish for having even become this attached in the first place. I keep trying to remind myself of these things. To try to make myself become apathetic to it. To just not care, because that would be so much easier. Sometimes I manage to for a while but I can’t get it to stick. I keep jumping emotions. For a while it’s fun to poke at how ridicules this whole re-boot is, to cheer over the few victories (and that’s truly what they feel like) that pop up, like the Static comic, and the possibility that Lian Harper might be back to life because Roy has his arm back. But something else comes up to remind me of how much we are losing, and I’m back down the emotional slope. I try to numb myself to it, and turn my back on it, but no matter what I do it all comes down to the fact that can’t get myself to just not care, no matter how ridicules it seems, even to me. These story and characters became ingrained in my life and they mean a lot to me.
No matter what happens in this, I’m going to keep writing for Thad and drawing for him and Impulse, even if it does hurt me that he (and possibly even the Impulse version of Bart) will no longer have a place in cannon. I wish I could be defiant and claim that this will keep him alive, but I don’t know if that’s true.
I know this is a good bye long overdue because I’ve been trying to be optimistic, despite my better judgment, but none the less…
Good bye Thad.
You were my favorite.As for me...I'm rejecting this reboot completely (and on second thought, everything post-Young Justice #55). I tried to deal with the insane shit DC's been pulling recently, but a line's been crossed and it's gone too far. Well, DC, you better hope those new readers can keep you afloat, because you're losing your old ones fast.